I Want To Die But I Want To Eat Tteokbokki

Baek Sehee is a successful young social media director at a publishing house when she begins seeing a psychiatrist about her depression. She feels persistently low, anxious, endlessly self-doubting, but also highly judgmental of others. She hides her feelings well at work and with friends, performing the calmness her lifestyle demands. This feels exhausting and overwhelming, preventing her from forming deep relationships. Despite her hopelessness, she has a desire for her favorite street food: the hot, spicy rice cake, tteokbokki. The book records her dialogues with her psychiatrist over twelve weeks, expanded with her reflective micro-essays, helping her understand her harmful behaviors and cycle of self-abuse. Part memoir, part self-help, it offers support to anyone feeling alone or despairing.